LAZY

ZOMG I'm so lazy to update this blog... D:

LOL (ignore meh pl0x Dx)

My Sixth Sense.

I've finished my thesis, at long last. Well, I've still got some revising thingy to do though.
Anyway, now I'll share you a story about the day before my thesis' presentation.

My presentation should be held on Thursday, July 17th 2008, 5pm. On Monday night, I still hadn't prepared anything. I thought, there's still some time to do the preparation. But on Tuesday morning, I woke up with some bad feelings. I can't stop wondering why. I told myself, 'Easy, there's still tomorrow... Easy... easy...'. Then I tried to sleep some more. But I couldn't sleep again. Well if I remember correctly it's almost lunch time. I ordered some food. Then I waited for the delivery guy.
The delivery dude didn't come for some time... then suddenly my friend texted me, 'Hey, did you know that you presentation day was moved to Wednesday at 5pm?' Reading that, I froze a bit. 'Isn't tomorrow is Wednesday?', I thought. Well, I kinda panicked, but then I thought, 'That's why I got this bad feeling since morning.' Suddenly I thought that this was a sixth sense I'm having. Is this the sixth sense everyone was talking about? I wasn't sure myself either. That maybe just a coincidence. So then the delivery guy come, I ate my lunch, then started to worry about tomorrow's presentation.
The evening came, and I just couldn't focus in my study. I surfed the net and chatted. Till some time, around 11pm, I saw the clock on my laptop. It was... 11:xxpm, I forgot. Suddenly, I got a bad feeling. I told myself, 'I better start studying now. What if there's a black out some time later? I can't study in the dark. And I obviously can't make the presentation in my laptop, since the battery leaked.' I hurriedly close my browser, and start looking for my papers.
As soon as I get up from my seat to collect the papers, I heard this sound *pfftt!*. Then suddenly it was pitch black. I was like... 'ZOMG! What on earth is wrong with me today?' (Was referring to my sixth sense). Instead of panicking because I couldn't make my presentation, I felt so excited ^_^. Well, then I looked for my emergency lamp, turned it on, then start reading my papers, and the good mood's with me.
About an hour later, the power's back. Well I wasn't as excited as before. I just promised myself to make a blog about this, and here we are.

Laziness Mastery

Hey... long time no post!

I've been depressed lately... coz of my thesis.

Well... I've got one thing to share this time. It's... my mastery on laziness.
It's so easy to be lazy. Does any of you actually can't get lazy? I don't think so.

First of all, I can always find other things to do than actually do the things that I should do.
Assignments? Well... half an hour of browsing won't hurt. Chatting for a while won't hurt. Watching my favorite series on TV won't hurt. Taking a good nap wont hurt... until I found out that I woke up in the morning... and late for class. Laziness indeed!

Secondly, it's always so hard to wake up in the morning. The alarm was ringing on 6AM, well... 1 more hour of sleep won't hurt. And I forgot to turn the alarm on again... You can imagine how surprised I was when I woke up and see the clock was showing 10AM!!! OMG the class was on 10AM!!! Nooooo!!!
......Well.......
........ might as well just continue my sleep :) Laziness indeed!
I usually found myself waking up at 1PM...

There are more evidence of my mastery on laziness... but now I'm just to lazy to write them all. I gotta do something else guys!

Hehehe...

Laters!

Afternoon Walk

Anyone watch anime "Sketchbook: fullcolor" ?
There, the little girl (main character) loved to take an afternoon walk, she brings along her sketchbook, so that she can draw some nice and lovely things like cats, sunsets, flowers, even she draws her friend.
I can see the setting in the anime is so peaceful.
That made me wanted to take a little walk this afternoon. Actually, I prefer bicycling, but the bicycle was broken, so that I ended up walking with my friend.
I brought my cellphone, with 2megapixel camera. I know it's not good, but it's good enough just for taking pictures :)

We talked about life, our friends, the good memories and the bads.
We enjoyed the scenery too, it was sunset. It's about 5-6pm.
We met some people we knew, and they're all seems to be in a good mood :)
Some people was playing badminton, some was bicycling with their dog.
Some kids are playing in the playground.

So these are the pictures I took.

Some random flowers in a tree.


Another random flowers.


This kitten was relaxing, and I didn't dare to get any closer as it may leave the spot :(

Mixed Up

Emotions...
Uncontrollable

Thought that someone would understand
Turned out that someone didn't understand
Told to other friend... a disappointment indeed

Good
Perceptions from two
However,
Secret is not a secret anymore
Trust... is on the edge

Didn't understand all the point of view
Said something about the past
Hurting
Used against oneself
Not the main point
Didn't understand even from back then
Now it's unrevealing
A disappointment indeed

Said that it's usual
It's unusual
Uncomfortable
A person is mad
Someone told an opinion

The thoughts within
Hard to tell
Difficult to express
Yet pure and innocent
Yet someone didn't understand
Yet didn't try to understand
Judgment
Is hurting

Moving on...
With life
With a deep scar
It'll be alright

An Old Comic Book Titled 'Wild Cats' 2

So the little boy's name is Ryuichi. The first time he met Caesar, he decided to raise her (Caesar is a female, by the way). He wanted Caesar to be great and strong like a lion.

Caesar grew up with a determination to be a great and strong cat. She tried hard to be a cat. She yawned like a cat, she got excited and raised her fur whenever a cockroach passes by.

One day, she tried to catch a butterfly, and jumped from roof to a tree. Unfortunately, her body was too big for the branch, so the branch broke as she touched it. Birds were flying from the tree and they got angry with Caesar for he broke their nests. Other stray cats saw this, and they gossiped about Caesar, how she couldn't catch a single mouse, when her foster cat-mother had already raised about 20 great cats under her care. They talked about Caesar's lack of confidence and her lack of courage.
Then Caesar got scolded by her foster mother, she felt disappointed with her. Caesar's mother was afraid that Caesar's gonna make troubles for her master with her discouragement. Caesar felt terribly bad about that.

The next day, Caesar went to her neighbor, and she met the dog there, named Ichiro. They talked much. Ichiro told her a story. It was 3 years ago.
Ichiro was eating his meal, and several bones got out from his plate. He didn't care about that, and he ate the meal vigorously. But suddenly, he saw a hand reaching for his bone. Reflexly, he got angry and bit the hand. It turned out that the hand was his master's hand, trying to put the bone back in the plate so that Ichiro can eat easier. Ichiro felt so bad about this. He thought he should be able to press his wild instinct against his master. Ichiro decided to punish himself to feel better, by fasting for a week.
Caesar was amazed with Ichiro's determination. Ichiro still felt sorry for the sin that he made, and he couldn't forgive himself. So Ichiro got so loyal now. He even guard the house still when it was raining or snowing. He tried to make his master happy :)
Hearing the story, Caesar wished that she can be a good use for her master too :)

When Caesar was in the middle of her thought, suddenly, Caesar's mom rushed and shouted at him 'Caesar, what are you doing here? Your master is in fight with his friends!!' Caesar shocked, and she ran as fast as she could to rescue her master.

~to be continued

P.S. The title should be 'Wild Cats', by Reiko Shimizu.
Credits goes to Reiko Shimizu for making the wonderful story :D

An Old Comic Book Titled 'Wild Cat'

First of all, Imma retell a story... it'll be a long one lol.

So I was going to the supermarket with my lovely daddy, to buy some oranges. As soon as I entered the supermarket, I saw a pile of comic books, with a big price tag "Rp. 3000,-" (about $0.3). Without any further doubt, I asked my daddy to wait for me while I searched for some nice comics. Those books were very old, and I kinda lost my interest that time. But fortunately, I saw a book with the title 'Wild Cat'. The cover was not very promising, but the word 'cat' got my attention. Yea, I love cats, meow! Anyway, I ended up buying that book. After I got home, I opened the plastic covering it, then I hurriedly read the book. So here it all begins...

One day, a little boy was walking home with his mother. It was raining. Suddenly, the little boy saw a box with some moving objects there. The box was dumped by an unknown person. He went nearer, then he saw some kittens there. The kittens looked so tired and hungry, and they sounded 'meow meow...'. Oh, the poor kittens... The boy was excited, and he felt like raising one of the kittens, the biggest one. The biggest kitten was almost double the size of a kitten, and it kinda looked like a baby lion (the boy didn't notice it by the way... lol). So he picked up the box and ran to his mother, he said, 'Mom, can we raise them?' His mom answered with doubt, 'We can't raise them. They're puppies right?' The little boy's eyes were shining with hope as he said, 'No mom, they're kittens. Look...' The mom looked at the inside of the box and she was sure that they're kittens. But because one of them was so different, she casted a little doubt, and she asked her little boy, 'Are you sure this is a kitten?'. The boy and the mom glanced at the special kitten, waiting for the kitten to prove itself as a kitten, till finally it meowed with a sweat over its forehead. (lol, the kitten was so cute at the comic...). The boy joyed and said, 'See? It is a kitten.' He picked it up and talked to the kitten, 'Caesar, from now on we'll be together.'

-to be continued
~I'll continue later coz it's getting late... gotta do other work sigh

Screwed up my thesis.

Heya. Tis been kinda long since I posted a blog. Well, kinda busy @the moment... staring out @nothing, sleeping, shopping... most are just things that's not important @all.
Sigh.

Well, I should've taken care the problem regarding my thesis proposal more seriously. I gave it to Mr. B (the one in charge) on time. He said, as long as I've given the proposal to him on time, it will reach Mr. L (Dean of my department). But guess what, I got no follow up till about a month and a half. Finally, after the long wait, I met with Mr.L who, of course, didn't hear a thing about my proposal. So I got him signed my proposal, and he gave me my 2nd instructor's name. It was Mr.M (Mr.2). By the way my 1st instructor is the one that I chose, Mr.S (Mr.1).

Now the problem is that Mr.1 said okay to my proposal. But when I met Mr.2, he said that my topic was too wide... he was afraid that I can't finished my thesis on time. He suggested that I got a new topic that's not as wide. I should narrow it down. It's my fault that I didn't see him earlier. Now, almost half the time is over. I shouldn't get pessimistic, but could I?
I'm kinda upset because Mr.1 didn't say a thing about my topic being too wide. Well perhaps everyone has got their own opinion... But, yeah, I'm upset. I kinda regret having him as my instructor.

This problem is kinda complicated for me. Beside that thing I mentioned above, I also don't really know what to research. Suppose that I narrowed down the topic, I still got so much doubts. Is this topic good enough for a bachelor degree, can I implement my thesis on the system, should I make a simulation or real application, etc. Too many questions in my head. But usually, when the instructor's there to help me, those questions sometimes are well hidden in my head. Or sometimes, when the instructor's answered, I'm kinda confused with his solution... the jargons he use are too hard to understand, the theory he says is just too complicated that I can't imagine it in the head. Just a few things that I can get.

So? What to do??

Should I make my own topic? But what if the instructors didn't approve it? Should I always come and consult to them? Sometimes even the instructors are making their own argument with each other. It's kinda driving me crazy.

But I know I shouldn't give up.

:)

MapleStory: A Rant... False Accusation of My Brother

We're all anti hackers, aren't we? Well me and my brother too. Ever since we played Maple. But sadly my brother is accused of hacking. Why? Because some high-levels said that they saw him hacking. Well, in fact we don't know how to hack, and we don't want to, because it's illegal and it'll ruin the reputation in Maple (fyi, my bro is a level 11x sniper).
I don't know when did this start. But lately my bro has been telling me that he's been accused of hacking and he's mad about it. I think he's said this before, like several months ago. But recently he brought it up again. Why? Because more people are believing that false accusation. Why did people start believing it? Because it's those high levels in my server who said that he hacks. Who wouldn't believe them? Meh.
Well I'll tell you this one story. Once, he's at the ship to Ellinia from Orbis. Rogs didn't come. So he stayed outside and jumping around with his Pumpkin Basket. My bro's in his good mood that time. Suddenly someone come out of the ship and saw him. He said something terrible that ruin the mood, even offensive. He said, "Have you turned on your godmode?" ..... How would you feel if after that much time you've spent on grinding legally (about 2 years fyi), suddenly someone came up to you and said that. Well, that person could only be joking, but I don't think so. My brother is now well known at some Maple forum that he's a hacker. He's not in the list of 50 legit archers (when the fact that he's 100% legit). And surely he will find a HARD time on finding a zhelm, since most of the guild that do z-runs need their member to be legit. And those forum is full of the people/guild that held z-runs. This false accusation has ruined his reputation, definitely. Good news is, his buddies and guild
mates believe in him.
How can I be sure that he's not hacking? Well, we live under one roof. I know that he can't hack, because he and I never search for it on the Internet, and thus we have no knowledge of hacking. He hates hackers, so why become one of them? I know he chooses to play legally.
I am so disappointed to those who accused him. They said they saw him hacking. Yet there is no other proof other than words. I tried to clear up my bro's name by trying to discuss it nicely with those who accused him. But it seems that they don't really want to discuss it. They said that they saw him hacking. End of story. Out off the legit list. What I was hoping is that they would tell me more information like what did they saw until they can say that he was hacking, because that way I can make an argument to clear up the name.
Well in fact, perhaps they might see him 'hacking-like', since our Internet connection is so bad. We live in Indonesia, which is so far from the server in US. Besides, the Internet speed in here is not to be compared of those in US, Canada or Europe. What I'm trying to say is that we LAG a LOT. And that lag can look like hacking. For example, you see someone hitting the monsters and suddenly lags(freezes) in your screen and he/she doesn't take any damage. Suddenly he/she pops into another platform of the map, and starts hitting the monsters again. This is not hacking. This is happened because the lagger's screen is not in synchrony with your screen. When the data has been transfered to your screen, what's happening is the lagger will looks like teleporting illegally. I say that if anyone saw him 'hacking', it must be the cause of lag.
I'll tell you another sad story... One day my bro got a whisper from a guy, said that his friend saw him hacking the day before. My bro's laughing at this (even though it's so painful in the heart hearing someone said that you hacked)... because he's not playing on that day. He said that he didn't play on that day to the guy, then the guy passed the info to his friend. The friend responded, than the guy passed the message, and said, "Oh sorry, perhaps that was another sniper hacking."............ Please! So you saw a sniper hacking, then what's on your mind is "OMG *ign of my bro* IS HACKING!!11", then hurriedly cc. Shouldn't you take a closer look at his/her ign? Won't you see his/her ign clearly if you're reporting him/her? Unfortunately, it doesn't stop here. He/she will pass this false accusation to his/her buddies, guild mates, and perhaps random people on the street. What a great disaster. Then if he/she found out that the info was false, will he/she give a damn to pass the rightful info? I don't think so. Well, I wonder if they care though. Gossiping is fun, but don't falsely accuse someone and make a gossip of that, please.
I do hope I can help my brother to clear up his name. But I don't know how. And it ends up me here ranting about it.
Too bad my first blog is about my rant lol.